I am so blind...

So much has been happening this semester I never have time to write on my blog. But I would prefer it to be like that anyway. Today I wondered how my own perspective looks. Do I ever consider what I first think through different angles and lenses other than my own? Even when it comes to God I believe that we all have our own preferences and ways of thinking. So how do I see beyond that? How do I become my open minded? I guess through learning and experiences. Listening to people and being a life long learner. It is through this that life becomes more enriching and purposeful.
I question myself at the things I do. Am I doing this the right way? Will this only satisfy my instant gratification or will this be more beneficial for the future? A question that runs across every girls mind deals with relationships. Yes there is that longing to be wanted and loved- but right now I don't want that. I fear commitment- because I don't have the time it takes right now to put into it. And then there is always the hurt and pain- and that sucks! Yes, I have gone through that and I was much more amazed at what I learned and how much I benefited from it rather than bitterness and regret. But what girl wants to get her heart hurt? None I think. So...now I think about the way that I will go into my next one. It's not the question of when- but how. Basically it's like this- the next man who enters my life will have to be patience because it's gonna take a while. Time will tell. I don't want to be easy to get... and I feel like my last relationship was just that. If you want me... you will wait. So..... I am trying to live life not on when but on how? What are the actions that I take. Because actions speak louder than words. I don't want to live life blindly. This is becoming a way confusing blog... too much for me to just write. I need to have a conversation- so call me if you want- and we'll talk. Have a wonderful night! -Liisa Noel